Why is it when you dance the floor goes away; Why is it when you tell me the truth the world goes away; Why come to dinner with your hands milked with blood; Why are you smiling in a time you are not needed.
A toast to the great moment; the first opening of that glass door
Into the pull and push of the office; to the building of a mountain.
To the echoes of Girltown; to four cubes long transformed
into a field of lilies, of bees, of blossoms.
It’s a world built like the thread on a spinning wheel.
A toast to each day and each product’s evolutionary reach
From Track to Report to Port to Watch like seeing a fish grow legs –
The weight of transformation on its back and the long, long road ahead.
A toast to a world that is always cruelest to the first of its kind.
To the great gray leader, from gray to white, smart to the brink of crazy,
Everyday it’s running with scissors to save a life,
everyday its pulling the sky down and asking to have it slipped into his pocket.
Everyday goes beyond the everyday and you find out your hands
Touched something special; a meteorite, a white buffalo.
To the Jedi down the hall that slips in and out with the wave of his head;
leaving a shadow like an oncoming train; a force that can take you
from dark to light to thought to truth.
To the councils and clockwatchers; to the voices long into the night
To the smiles and the frowns; to those lost and to those found
To the John, the Tim, the Steven, the Gerard, the Tracy, the Shelly,
To them there is the Ed, the Paula, the Jody, the Dylan, the Howard, the Jeff, the Adam.
A toast to those who have danced on the fire and those who swallowed it whole.
To the birth of the horn; waterlogged and scissor’d,
Pure in his piece of mind; to his heart beating like the boom boom
Of breaking walls and boxes dropping. Cupped in hand
he would gladly murder the world if we told him to.
A toast to that uncut loyalty, the pure form in a vial in hand.
To every tear in every eye, all the sweat shed,
to every tire mark left on lonely Kansas roads, the din of airplane food,
the bleeding gums and bent faces. To the dark of times,
in the O8s or O9s when that great fear welled up over the dam —
a great pair of hands tearing us down to the sinew and tissue,
down to the blood and the frame –
stripped our skeletons down to the barcode of bones.
To the glasses raised on Horn hill; tall and bald and singing
Into the deep shadows of dawn.
A toast to the wave after wave after wave, the relentlessness
of energy, the breathing of a heavy fight and the rising up.
Breath for the rising up because it is what makes impossible a slave.
To the fights and the secret wars that pull at the stiches of the injury;
To the emails typed with the face of a harpy and never sent;
to the warpaint in the morning and at the end of the day.
And in the end the hands; the hands that shook and made a difference.
Together we push the boulder back up the hill.
Together we toast the future and the boulder going over the hill.
To the beautiful gray image, the stone born from the ash of a mind,
A straight line grown over jagged hill scans, a sentry, a minute man,
A mind wrapped around gray armor, the kick to the system,
A symbol of smart shining as the sun is a symbol of light.
To the Post Office; to the friend; to the enemy,
To the brink of delirium, the letterbound void of madness,
The constant flow and reflow of data to hands
To data to mail to data to those among you
Who can read it like a living Rosetta stone.
A toast to the young lions/esses that sacrifice shit and shingles,
Who slave to make the wise understand the wisdom
Of erratic thought-driven youth. To those original wise ones,
To the osmosis of the soul and the screaming birth that brings morning.
To the laughter, to the comedy, to the drink and the drunk
And the sober, to hysterics and the cackling voices down the open doors,
The lips that part to say the single word that makes
The gray grayer and world better – the word that swells
A typhoon over tongue, through teeth, a spring of tornado.
To when you realize that facing you is the life you make of it;
To when you realize the place where you stand is the place
You need to be; were born to be.
Years of crazy meets the just right recipe of genius
And modern day madness. Weep when you know this.
Tell others, write it on the walls, a middle finger to every told you so,
Every person who sat you down and set you straight.
I make this toast to the great heart of the company,
The great heavy thump thump of the birth of each new idea
Off the maroon walls, the sound of thunder
Ripping through your ribcage and the last exhalation in your lungs.
A toast to the way we pull at each other;
The molding of this life into the hair, the blood, the eyes, the skin
A toast to the bleeding of gray and raise your glasses
To the great success spread out in front of us all.
Misc. Heavy Metal lyrics,
The taste of pills in the morning,
Bladder out of water dying
Like a fish, flip and flip, flip and flop,
I hover over the urinal – yellow into white sin.
The sound of the splashing, the up-birth
Of pain, the dream is death – again and again.
The easy ways to say the vomit is venom,
The aging old fact that the snake
No longer bite, no longer hunts
In the long grass, by the long end of the day.
I am wiping the blood from the reins,
Moving the night that keeps me at bay,
The inner breakout of bricks and mortal
And watching it tumble down into my feet,
Keep me still in one place.